The truth is that a Homebirth is not everyone's. Cup of tea but for me it was the way I decided to plan this pregnancy to end. I knew that what I wanted was something that not many doctors out there would back, but I knew that I could find one. And that I did, but her insurance would not back the procedure. She told me to not give up and find a way to get my VBA2C. As most of you know I am a very determined person at heart and If I want something bad enough I will fight till the end. Now that works both for and against me at times. But as for this time it worked in my favor. I started with lots of research sometimes up all night scanning through articles on line and in books. I read so many vbac stories I found that through reading them I got a You can do it attitude ... I ended up finding out that lots of these VBAC and VBA2C were happening at home. So that started my research into Homebirth. To be honest with you when I started looking into this I knew No One who had delivered at home. I some way some how found a peace with it. And then found a wonderful midwife it turn out I had talked to her along the way through my research to begin with. So in someways I felt my research had come full circle.
I remember the first time I even spoke the word Homebirth to my husband: that was a moment I will never forget. Truth be told he took it a lot better than I had ever expected. After a lot of talking we came to the conclusion that if we could not find a midwife that we would do it just the to of us. Completely unassisted ! We prayed that God would lead us the way that he wanted us to go.
And like he always does he opened some doors and closed other ones.
The first meeting with the midwife was way better than we both expected. She wasn't what either of us thought they (midwives) were at all. I guess the image we painted was an old lady reminiscent of someone's granny that had been delivering babies all there life. I know that sounds horrible but we just did not know. Turned out that she was a young well educated woman that kind of reminded me of a friend that I would hang out with. Full of life and just happened to be a midwife. She was very approachable down to earth kind of person. I must say that this is something that helped us become
Comfortable with the dicission to have her be our midwife. She comes every month and the boys really love helping her . When we say that the midwife is coming they sit at the window till she pulls up and then out the door to help her get in . You can tell they are so excited to see her. Kobran has taken on the roll of finding Javier's heart beat and Manny wiped the ultrasound jell off. I really love that having this pregnancy cared for at home make the whole family feel involved and not left out. And I feel in lots of ways that the boys will except the baby more when he comes . Like it won't be so hard of a transition on them. It is like he has been here the whole time.
We also did decide to make this a water birth and like a Homebirth we had not heard of anyone that had done that either. But hey that did not matter we set out on this whole thing not on what others had done but what we wanted to do . And what God's will may be for us in our lives. Through this whole process we have found out a lot about ourselves and about us as a couple . And while the journey has just begun we will keep you all updated . The one thing that matters most to us in this journey is the PEACE that God has given us through this whole process.
-Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself!
-George Bernard Shaw
