Seven Years and A Wake Up!

As I look back on the last 7 years of my life; I can\'t help but realize that one thing stands out. I remember the last time I saw my daddy, it was a Saturday morning in the lower ninth ward. That was not unusual I would go see him on Saturdays and spend time with him. But I remember that visit to be very unusual he had a different tone in his voice one that seemed to crack. He sat me on the edge of his bed and began to tell me that he did not intend to leave for hurricane Katrina and that if anything were to happen to him he had all the information on a piece of paper in his pocket in a ziplock bag. He would barely let me get two words out. I seemed not to realize that he knew he would not make it through the storm. I just thought that we were going on a little vacation and would be back to clean up the mess and move on like always. I remember that he told me that I had become a very beautiful young lady and very sweet. And as we walked out he put his hand around my shoulder and as I look back that was the slowest walk down his long drive way. As we reached the car he stopped and turned to me and wiped the hair out of my face and said "Be sweet and remember that your daddy loves you so much!" he hugged me and put me in the car and turned to my mother and told her as she was pleading for him to leave with us he told her that "God would calm the stormy waters !"

As I look back through the years I realize that he was right God did calm the stormy waters in his life. And I have had my hard days in these past 7 years when I comes to dealing with his death. I have learned that as much as I would like to be a crazy dream it\'s not . I wake up everyday and see him in the things I do and the way I look at things .

My Choice To Plan A Homebirth..VBA2C...

    The truth is that a Homebirth is not everyone's. Cup of tea but for me it was the way I decided to plan this pregnancy to end. I knew that what I wanted was something that not many doctors out there would back, but I knew that I could find one. And that I did, but her insurance would not back the procedure. She told me to not give up and find a way to get my VBA2C. As most of you know I am a very determined person at heart and If I want something bad enough I will fight till the end. Now that works both for and against me at times. But as for this time it worked in my favor. I started with lots of research sometimes up all night scanning through articles on line and in books. I read so many vbac stories I found that through reading them I got a You can do it attitude ... I ended up finding out that lots of these VBAC and VBA2C were happening at home. So that started my research into Homebirth. To be honest with you when I started looking into this I knew No One who had delivered at home. I some way some how found a peace with it. And then found a wonderful midwife it turn out I had talked to her along the way through my research to begin with. So in someways I felt my research had come full circle. 

I remember the first time I even spoke the word Homebirth to my husband: that was a moment I will never forget. Truth be told he took it a lot better than I had ever expected. After a lot of talking we came to the conclusion that if we could not find a midwife that we would do it just the to of us. Completely unassisted ! We prayed that God would lead us the way that he wanted us to go.

And like he always does he opened some doors and closed other ones. 

The first meeting with the midwife was way better than we both expected. She wasn't what either of us thought they (midwives) were at all. I guess the image we painted was an old lady reminiscent of someone's granny that had been delivering babies all there life. I know that sounds horrible but we just did not know. Turned out that she was a young well educated woman that kind of reminded me of a friend that I would hang out with. Full of life and just happened to be a midwife. She was very approachable down to earth kind of person. I must say that this is something that helped us become 

Comfortable with the dicission to have her be our midwife. She comes every month and the boys really love helping her . When we say that the midwife is coming they sit at the window till she pulls up and then out the door to help her get in . You can tell they are so excited to see her. Kobran has taken on the roll of finding Javier's heart beat and Manny wiped the ultrasound jell off. I really love that having this pregnancy cared for at home make the whole family feel involved and not left out. And I feel in lots of ways that the boys will except the baby more when he comes . Like it won't be so hard of a transition on them. It is like he has been here the whole time.

We also did decide to make this a water birth and like a Homebirth we had not heard of anyone that had done that either. But hey that did not matter we set out on this whole thing not on what others had done but what we wanted to do . And what God's will may be for us in our lives. Through this whole process we have found out a lot about ourselves and about us as a couple . And while the journey has just begun we will keep you all updated . The one thing that matters most to us in this journey is the PEACE that God has given us through this whole process. 

-Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself! 

-George Bernard Shaw

It\'s A Boy!!!!

As most already know we are expecting a new baby on New Years 2013 sooooo... Here are some updated pictures of baby Javier Elijah ...

Ready Set Gooooo!!!

It kinda went a little like this 

i got frustrated with a few things in life

so i got dressed and started running 

until i felt better

 well that was 6.5 miles when i was done

hey ! i did in 1hr 34 min

i realized 

Hey! i should run a race

so 

I did 

7 weeks before the Crescent City Classic

I started training

i would run at night i got better really fast

i was so proud of myself

and then by race day ......

There i was in a skirt and long sleeves

well i would never put my religious beliefs aside

 

i got on the bus and started that long ride to the start line

photographers kept saying wait we want a picture we have never seen it ran in a 

SKIRT! 

so

Click

Click

  and all the way to the front i maneuvered

and POW the race had begun

on foot in front the other it was like a had fire under my feet...

and what I'm to the city park now ..

wait what happened I'm at the photo finish line 

YAY!

wait wait wait... 

I'm done! 

there is the hubby and the kids 

OMG i did it

 

oh wait i cut off 30 minutes of my time

hey wait up did he just say my name 

yes he said your the first skirt i have seen all day and she made the top 2,000

out of 21,000 runners...

wow now that A RACE PEOPLE..

Your Half Way To 50!

Party Was His Middle Name

Wow.. It seems like Yesterday that we were Having your 21st Birthday at the Buffalo Wild Wings In Jackson! I Remember that like it was Yesterday Oh the memories! Wow Lots was different ! I really didnt believe it was your Birthday that year i asked to see your license! that was too cute looking back! April Fool's Day! I had never know anyone with that birthday! Lets take a look back... 

  

Modeling Was His Life